calm before the storm

On Saturday we returned here to Calgary from the Kamloops bootcamp - what a week. Great week, just very intense, very powerful, very exciting. God really did some deep stuff.

I leave for Eston bootcamp on thursday and it definately feels like the calm before the storm. There are things to do but the prep time is a bit different because a lot of it was done before Kamloops, so this time is more tweaking, and shifting things around for a different week. There will be way more kids, and the atmosphere will be different. It will be good though, I am looking forward to it.

I feel like I am in the perpetual tired state. Going full steam for a full week sure causes some wear, not to mention the wonderful floor...my back is sore but all is well...

well, it was a brief and completly uneventful update....until later...ciao

I write this from bootcamp here at Street Inavders in BC.
Things are moving along and will soon be done. It is amazing how fast time flys.
There is so much that I could say right now.
But I am late for lunch.
Hungry I am.

I FOUND IT

I am VERY excited.
I have been listening to my longest running favorite song
"walking in memphis" by Marc Cohn.

When I was little (9-ish) my uncle had made my mom a mixed tape with a bunch of excellent songs on it. Being little and quite oblivious to artists and or their music I never really knew the names of what I was listening too.

I would get home from school and while mom was still at work I would throw in this mixed tape and turn the volume WAY up.
Sometimes I would just lie on my back on the living room floor - soaking up what I was hearing. Sometimes I would dance my heart out, or just dance about while I did random things around the house.
I loved it. Absolutley loved it.
(I did this with the Beatles as well)

As time moved on - I think the tape got lost or misplace or just overplayed. But when I actually realized that I missed that music I could not track down this tape or the artist that was on it!
I was so frustrated.

Well...I was searching for information on the song "walking in Memphis" and realized that the CD that song is orginally found on has ALL the songs that I have been craving to hear since I was 10.
I'm so excited that I am getting teary eyed. I am constantly amazed at how music can just take you places that you haven't been in years.

I feel like I am in the living room again, sprawled out on the floor, being taken away by rythmns and melodies that just soaked right into my soul.

KFC

KFC is my friend.
I have always been a friend of KFC.

Last night I had KFC
(I usually only ever get the classic combo - sometimes the big crunch combo)
and I spent all last night and today ill.

I hate being ill.
Espeically when it is from something that you love!
*argh*
I feel so sick.
I just want to curl up with some tea, plunk around on an acoustic guitar (I really just want a piano but there is not one near) and be a big baby.
Mom - I wish you were here to rub my back....

amazing evenings

The evenings this past week have been absolutley incredable. Yesterday was really quite windy and - well - that was kind of annoying. But once the sun set - oh my - gorgeous night!

I hold a love/hate relationship with evenings like that. I love them because I love being outside. I love going for walks and being in the air. I hate them because they stir everything inside of me until I nearly burst. All my dreams, passions, fears, insecurities and randomness float to the surface and just bob about frequently bumping against each other.

It is hard to catch them when they are bobbing like that. As soon as you get close the ripples of your nearness push them away. It - lately - has been come this giant game of hide and seek in my mind. Everything is hiding from me, just barely alluding my grip.

I don't know what it is about this place - maybe it is the people - or then again maybe it is just God stirring stuff. This happens everytime I leave Eston. I wonder why?

Things get so much clearer once I am not in Eston. Lethargy disapears, apathy disapears, I am passionate again over things that were dormant. What's with that? I love that place, those people...how am I supposed to live in the midst of it? How do I fight those things that so silently and transparently grab a hold of my soul and suck the life from it?

Ever write a blog intending it to be one way and it becoming it's own thing?
yah,
just happened.

much to do

I find it rather hillarious that I will be doing so much "teaching" on Street Invaders this summer. This is a good thing, I am excited and looking forward to it, I just love how God seems to prepare me a good 4 months in advance before whatever is coming next in my life.

Obviously I am heading into a teaching internship and will be learning the behind the scenes work and work load of a professor of a small bible college. It is great how I will have a good handful of formal "teaching" experiance BEFORE I even b e g i n my internship....lol. I wonder what God has up his sleeve.

Blistering hot today.
So wonderful.

I have a lot of stuff to research and prepare for these different little teaching things I will be doing and all of the stuff I want to pull from resource wise are all in E S T O N ! grrrr...
It is so hard being up here knowing EXACTLY where something is in a book, where the book is, or a handful of books that would be helpful

followed by the realization that all the books are not with me....and I just can't get my hands on the sort of research that I need to do.....oi.......

anyway. all is well.

I went on an "art rampage" yesterday. In the afternoon I ended up sketching the banner design onto the bed sheet so that it is ready to paint as soon as I get the paints to the offifce and then when we got back to the appartment I spent the next four hours sketching a very similar desing onto a canvass that I am painting for one of my roomates.
AND THEN
I spent the next two hours collaging....lol.

and then I couldn't sleep. lol. I was thinking too hard.
how was your day?

quick post

Well I have spent this last week without internet access...this is okay; curbs the addiction.
Things have been going good so far.
My location could not be any better, connecting with the people I live with, doing what I love - who could complain eh?

I am excited and nervous all at the same time for the upcoming events. It is the deep routed unsettleness - not in a bad way - but in a way that makes you double check and see that all things are worked out to the best of your ability.
Once the event hits - it will run how it runs, there is little you can do to change very much.
This is why I am nervous now - because I know that it is these moments that matter greatly in determining how the future moments will play out.

Went to Batman Begins tonight *excellent movie and very pleased with how it was made* can't wait to see War of the Worlds (and not because of Tom - I dislike him greatly) but rather because I found out the Dakota Fanning does an AMAZING job and Tim Robbins is in it! So great, so great.