The Album Leaf

I fell in love with a new band a little while ago. Discovered that all of a sudden what I was boppin' my head to was really really good and started to pay more attention to it. It was then that I was hooked.
They are called "The Album Leaf"
Mostly instrumental, slightly techono-ish ambient beats, scarce vocals.....just really well done music - I really can't get enough of them right now....

So its Tuesday eh....definately need to get packing...I leave very soon.

Grad has come and gone...

I woke up this morning and couldn't believe that I had graduated. It all felt like a dream. That I hadn't really walked across the stage and recieved my degree, I just couldn't believe it.

I haven't broken down completely in tears over the ending of school.
I can imagine that it will hit when I am in Calgary, when I realize that I won't be returnng to college.... but that is expected....it will be strange when it happens though.

Jr High is this weekend coming up and so the majority of the students stickin' around are helping get things up and ready.
Definately out of words again......

I'm getting a Degree....who'da thought.

Well friends, tomorrow I walk the stage in my cap and gown and recieve my Degree in Biblical Studies. Unbelievable.
I sit here exhausted but happy. It is so good to have my mom and aunt here this weekend, to be able to laugh with my friends, and to look back on these last eight months and see the change that has taken place in each of our lives. I am honoured to have shared this journey with these people, blessed and so thankful for them in my life.

Thankfully I have not broken into a fit of tears - yet. I fear that tomorrow it will hit. Maybe as I sit on stage, as I see my peers in their caps and gowns, as I look out at the parents, friends, and teachers, or maybe just as I realize that its been a four year long journey that is in some ways ending tomorrow. Even though it is sad to say "see ya laters", it is an exciting time, I am happy for us grads and happy thinking of those returning next year, all that they will learn, the friends they will make, and the change that will take place in their lives.

I can't wait to hear their stories down the road!
catch ya on the flip side...

well folks....

Today has blasted upon me and what is it?
Let me tell you - it is Thursday.
Thursday's are typically wonderful days, the excitement and glee looking forward to the fast approaching weekend is usually something that gets everyone through.

However this Thursday is a bit more - odd.
You see this weekend coming up is not like other weekends, and I do realize that no weekend is the same... but this weekend I graduate with a bachelors degree in Biblical Studies....
that's almost intimidating....

My to do list has dwindled, now all that remains is packing and organizing all my "stuff", signing yearbooks, and hanging out with friends. It doesn't seem like very much left to do, but let me tell you that none of those things are easily done.

I am trying to live with my camera attached to me so that I can get some fun photo's of people before everyone leaves...the problem is that my batteries die very consistently......
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.........I have definitely run out of things to say.

Monday p.m.

You have caught me up within your whirlwind,
a spinning and swaying that consumes.
This turning about has made my eyes fuzzy,
my vision blurry, my thoughts tear.
You have caused my gaurds to fall...

Emotions that were once tucked away with ease,
I am finding tha "ease" has slipped away somewhere,
up and left me unexpectedly,
no note,
no "i'll be back later",
just up and left without warning.

Like a tantrum throwing child
I thrash in frustration,
in my confusion I find
myself caught in the rythmn of your whirlwind.

Soothing in its steadiness,
I forget my frustration,
I forget my childish anger,
and I rest...

.the end is near.

The first thought to run through my mind as I woke up this morning was "I really like country music" and the real reason for this post was actually the second thought to run through my mind this morning "I Graduate in 7 days". As exciting as that thought is, it was enough to freeze me to my bed. I didn't want to wake up, I didn't want to face this last regualr sunday I have here, I didn't want to pack and think of all I have to do. I just wanted to lie there and pretend it didn't exist.

This is going to be a hard week. So dear FGBC friends...if suddenly I am nowhere to be found understand that I am probably in hiding, probably taking really long walks down highways that stretch and stretch, probably buring myself in boxes, mindlessly craming and organizing all that I have here.

I have so much to organize.

No title today

I have a favorite word today...
Do you want to know what it is?

...Blatherings....

In fact, it may not be a word at all,
but I like it.
It pretty much sums up how I have been the last few days...
just blathering about,

in emails, in essays, with friends...
boisterously blathering...
bahahahaha
alright back to my paper...

Soon I will see...

I once listened to an Indian on Television say that God was in the wind and the water, and I wondered at how beautiful that was because it meant you could swim in Him or have Him brush your face in a breeze...
I believe I will reflect upon thses early days, these days when it seemed God was down a dirt road, walking toward me. Years ago He was a swinging speak in the distance; now He is close enough I can hear his singing.

Soon I will see the lines on His face...
- From Blue Like Jazz

.....that last line excites me, stirs me in me joy like an child.....
Soon, soon I will see the lines on His face.

France

I fell asleep dreaming of living in France last night.
I have had it on my heart to learn French for a long time now. I just feel like I "have" to, there is no option in the matter - and I just really would like to be fluent in French (someday I want to speak as many languages as I have time to learn)

My logic with languages is that if I have the means I want to move to where the language is spoken instead of just taking classes. This is because languages are tied with cultures and people, and to get a proper understanding of a language you need to see and be with the culture and the people.

I have wanted to move to France for a long time, namely because the countryside would be a beautiful place to get to know, also to learn french cuisine, but primarily to learn the language, France french. (Canadian french is ok, but it is VERY different from France french, if i get a choice in the matter, I choose France French).

I am getting excited about moving to Calgary, about getting to know the area that I will be living in, about being able to swim in the mornings, of joining bowling clubs and aqua size, taking walks and exploring downtown Calgary, finding a church community...Too soon, my time here is ending too soon.
I have run out of things to type.

A Picture of Me Today

Listening too:
Hildegard Von Bingen

Working On:
Internship Final Paper

Dreaming Of:
Being a Photo Journalist

Drinking:
Tea

Wishing:
That I had nothing to do but be with friends and pack my stuff.

Trying too:
Learn CSS

Flickr

I put some of the photo's that I take on Flickr, as most of you know. I highly recomend that if you have any time at all, or if you appreciate photography, there are some really amazing photographers that host their photo's on Flickr, and are well worth the time in looking at their photo's. Check them out.

In my travels on Flickr I stumbled across "bsidez" and he is from the netherlands.
His photo's are incredable.

There is many in this one set of these abandoned buildings and such. When I see these photo's I want to climb inside of them and explore, climbe the stairs, feel the walls, smell the dust hanging in the air.
I haven't had the chance to explore adandoned buildings in so long. My childhood is made up of exploring abandoned farm houses, grain elevators, churches, garages, climbing on old farm equiptment....*sigh*I miss it.

I have come to realize how much of an adventurer I am, I long to climb mountains, swim seas, canoe rivers, hike trails, learn of cultures, speak languages. Bsidez photo's bring this all to my mind....

addiction

This is my addiction.
I grew up in this small town and hung out with Bible College students who were passionate in their development of the game of foozeball. Without fail I could walk down into the games room and find two - sometimse four - students trying desperately to win, sometimes there would be a considerable amount of people crowed around the table, watching the match take place.

This is the place and the enviroment where I learned to play.
I learned against those crazy bible college students.

It was after first year that I decided to put foozeball to the side, it was taking WAY to much of my time and in fact I barely played until this last half of my last year here.
I have awakened the demon and the incredable love of that game.
It really is all I think about...and boy oh boy does it make me smile when I think of it.

I thought I would just share with you all something so dear to my life.
Do something you absolutley love to do today - for no reason other than you love to do it.
I shall play foozeball.

nut to-the ella

Fact of the morning --> I am craving nutella.
This chocolaty nutty goodness brings to mind England.
Oh how I miss England.

I miss using their coins, hearing their slang, seeing the expression on their faces and hearing them apologize endlessly for their rudeness as they discovered I was Canadian and not American. I really did fall in love with London. I think it is one of those cities that I would like to live in - should I ever be able to afford it.

mmm, dreamy creamy nutella.

I am also craving Royal Gala Apples.
I definately like them apples.

I shall go buy some nutella and royal gala apples.
A simple delight for a simple gal.
Alrighty folks, its the 3rd already....
...yikes...

no more countdown

You all may be wondering where the countdown on the side bar went. Well to be quite honest with you all it was depressing me. I think the reality that it is going to be ending so quickly has begun to hit home and watching those numbers get smaller and smaller - well I just couldn't do it anymore....

So that is where the countdown went...

In other news, our ECFHA hockey team (lets hear it for Endtimes Hockey Battilion) has swept the semi finals of playoffs and now advances to the final games on monday...

definate w00t

I have started to pack - just books and such. I usually pack in spurts, I will all of a sudden be overwhelmed with the urge to pack and so I will. Its hard for me to do it little by little.

Anyway, I think my spurts will be more out of frustration this time around - frustration that this is ending, it will be a venting session of sorts, where all the emotion I am feeling of one season ending and another begining will be thrown into chucking things in boxes and trying to keep it all organized so I can find stuff when I get to Calgary...

I have three assignments left - that is a very small amount. I will most likely finish two of them by monday...

I am off to play foozeball...

ciao